lately i have only been sleeping every 30+ hours.
i am so stressed out and i’m not sure why. (i am a failure and a disappointment and have pushed everyone further away then ever and i just can’t think or care and i feel like i have no room to breath and i’m not sleeping because it feels like a waste of time and maybe i can find something to fill this gaping hole in me with the time that i should be sleeping i just want to scream and maybe cry i’m so frustrated and i’m not doing anything)

i’ve never imagined a future for myself. when i try to picture what might lie ahead, it’s just black. maybe it’s because i live in the moment or maybe it’s because i figure i wont be around for an important future.
day by day. nada y nada.